SPIN ME LIKE A YO-YO

2006-10-17T10:16:00.000+08:00

OK this gonna be a very long and irritating post SINCE i'm so free in my LASALLE-SIA Suite. Days in this Art School is such a bitch! I tell you ppl pay to come here jus for the name of LASALLE SIA. how freak is that? Well, knoe wat happen to me? I was put in the wrong sch. I applied for foundation dance but ended up in foundation fine arts. I'm stuck here for the rest of the semester. 2nd Semester is only January and when January starts, my scheduele is ONLY DANCING AND THEORY. No other than that. Fun? HELL YEAH!
Yesterday i went out with my darling Nisah. hehe. SO FUN. I tagged along Adi along and this pretty bitch of mine says he's not standard as those compared to any of my ex-boyfriends. HE IS JUST TOOOOOO SIMPLE. Interestingly, he is SIMPLE but he was once a KTMRacer. But i like him because he's a nice, good kind of person, I THINK. What if he's not? Then you know who's my next victim? Wan Da Unit? Remember sweet boy thing from the past. Well he's nt the next victim but somehow the next target of becoming the ONE. haha. We ( me n Nisah) talked alot bout Aydel yesterday. He was such a nice pig! but y must he do such a thing to me? And ISK, he's another asshole. Leave me with nothing but NOTHING AGAIN. Nevermind la MyA. Who says beautiful girls gets everything?
Well this will be for ALUMNI ZHENGHUA SECONDARY SCHOOL. Some of you wouldn't have known that actually during MY FRESHMAN YEARS, i had a crush on this guy called SEETOH DINO KHAIRUL. yea that chinese-malay guy. yes that Breakdancer. He was so damn hot, that time of course. hehe. then somehow during my graduation, we were so close, as bestfriends. but then a few days ago, he confessed to me HE LIKES ME AS IN LOVES ME N WANTS ME TO BE HIS GIRLFRIEND. you know wat i told him? Sorry Boyfriend, no more NONSENSE! hehe
So wats next on the bitch's list?
Boyfriend? CHECK
Next Victim? CHECK
Hot fashion? IT HAS TO BE GUESS HONEY.
Next Bitch to hunt down n eat? Well of course my classmates! You can't hang ard with them too much or you'll get DISGUSTED BY THEIR STUPIDITY.

Ok maybe that's it!
CintA, MyA.
oh and yes to anoon? whoever you are. It's either camera effect makes me flawless or it's just IN THE GENES honey. muah!

2006-09-29T18:54:00.000+08:00

so this is life. school. Adi. Family- freaking noisy bonda, myclownyDada, my farking and pls-get-out-of-my-sight brother n mygorgeous Sister n nt forgetting thebro-in-law. Did u see that name Adi? khekhe. that will only b a story told verbally. Anyways ballet classes and more contemporary. more cigarettes and less of myAsahi. i'm wrecked! but nt forgetting myGORGEOUS people. well some of them, went out for sisha at Arab Street. fun period.

2006-09-22T03:13:00.000+08:00

Somehow I'm very satisfied & feel the achievement of having to complete my project, in time. Thanks to my sweetheart, Li & Fel. I love you guys. You guys make me wanna do my individual projects way in advance n hand it in time. But sometimes I'm jusssstttt wayyyyy phuckiiinnnggg LAZYYYY.

here's a sneak preview of our work-of-art.

CintA MyA.

2006-09-21T01:55:00.000+08:00

tagged by myforeverGORGEOUSBITCH, Valerie.

5 snacks I enjoy:
1. PORKY STRAWBERRYYYYYYYY
2. 7/11 INSTANT TOM YUMMMMM
3. HAAGEN DAAZ COOKIES&CREAMMM
4. DUNKIN' DONUTSSSSSS
5. FRID ICE CREAM

5 songs I know all the words to:
1. Cinta- KrisDayanti&Melly
2. KingofMyHeaven- someHOUSEMUSIC
3. ALL OF PAULVANDYKE
4. MissingYou- 1st Lady
5. Halo- One Tree Hill Soundtrack

5 things I would do with 100 million dollars:
1. SHOPPING!
2. LEXUSSSSS RX800
3. ADOPT MANY MANY KIDS
4. EXPENSIVE HOBBIES
5. OPEN A DANCESTUDIOCOMPANY

5 places I would run away to:
1. MY BOYFRIEND'S PLACE
2. Paradise
3. MY BOYFRIEND'S PLACE
4. Paradise
5. MY BOYFRIEND'S PLACE

5 things I would never wear:
1. my bf's mom pyjamas.
2. ntgorgeous clothes.
3. one whole swimming suit
4. bra when I'm sleeping
5. NAKED unless it's w/ my bf.

5 Things that turn me off:
1. People who stink
2. my bf's ex gf/ my ex-bf's gf/ my ex-bf's ex gf?
3. My Brother-In-Law.
4. Caucasian guys.
5. guys who thinks their sex was great, actually I don't really get satisfied.

5 Things that turn me on:
1. YOU :)
2. MUSIC
3. ARTS
4. KENNETH
5. MYSELF.

5 bad habits that I will regret later on:
1. Not buying the things I like
2. not doing something, although its regretting.
3. Removing my tattoo & getting a new one.
4. Not giving a try in a solo dance competition.
5. Not being able to settle down.

5 biggest joys:
1. 14th November of everyYEAR
2. Having nice friends / family
3. Mybf who loves me alot more than I love him.
4. Achievements
5. MySelf.

5 Famous People I would Love to Date:
1. YOU, ONLY
2. IF
3. I
4. HAVE
5. TIME!

2006-09-21T01:06:00.000+08:00

I never promised you a ray of light,
I never promised there'd be sunshine everyday,
I give you everything I have, the good, the bad.
Why do you put me on a pedestal,
I'm so up high that I can't see the ground below,
So help me down you've got it wrong,
I don't belong there.
One thing is clear, I wear a halo when you look at me,
But standing from here, you wouldn't say so if you were me
And I, I just wanna love you.
I always said that I would make mistakes,
I'm only human, and that’s my saving grace,
I fall as hard as I try
So don't be blinded
See me as I really am, I have flaws and sometimes I even sin,
Why you think that you know me
But In your eyes
I am something above you
It’s only in your mind
Only in your mind I wear a Halo

I just wanna love you.

Why does it everytime you have to make a VERY difficult decision? Why life has to be so complicated? Why can't it be simple?

Difficult and Smart decision will lead you to a better life and nothing more. Difficult and Stupid decision will leave you w/ abundant experience.
Life is complicated, if its not then its not Life.
Life is simple, I'm making myself Difficult.

I left all those 'Scandals' times. I thought it wouldn't happen, but it happen again. What happened to all those dreams of settling down with someoneTRULYloved. I'll will nvr find thatSomeone that loves me more than I do. Coz it seems being gorgeous won't help keeping thatSomeone STILL.
The other problem, you have so many affairs but the one you turn to by the end of the day, actually, never really did satisfy u w/ much Love. I'm nt asking for much.
IM JUST ASKING FOR ATTENTION by someone I'm with.
Is that so fucking DIFFICULT? again LIFE.

Eg. or rather RIE (REAL LIFE EXPERIENCE)
These Chinese/Australian guy who cares so much for you, love you till bits, msg you like every moment the earth is spinning and everything that satisfy Us women. BUT BUT BUT, us being utterly disappointing whores or rather ME returns to a normal stable acceptable MALAY/BOYAN guy who GETS YOU CONFUSED OF TRYING TO FIGURE OUT IS HE IN LOVE WITH ME? OR IS HE CONFUSED HIMSELF. farking irritating.

What's the phucking problem with men nowadays? fark these creatures sometimes.

I am a very difficult girlfriend.
I wan attention by myBF. then who else, right?
I won't show that attitude but I'll eat myself w/ confusion. that's me.
I wan to settle down w/ a serious relationship. young? i've been living that whore life for 4 yrs! what do u expect?
I AM SHAG, byela wanna sleep.

CINTA MYA. muah!

I told you I was a bitch. taken 3yrs back @ erm.. mebbe Zouk.

2006-09-19T19:14:00.000+08:00

I promise I'll give you EVERYTHING I have. My Heaven and My Hell. I promise.
CintA MyA.

Updating those TERRIBLYMISSED.

2006-09-06T21:14:00.000+08:00

I'm so bad in LOVE. oh just LOVE nw are so bad?

Should I stay or should I go?

I don't know.

Even though I won't see, how u put the game on me, I can't let u pass it on me. You got me crazy, wanting me to be your lady.

Winters gone away, every moment pass me by.

But now that you gone away, all the times we had are swayed. How long would be? For us to be like this.

Later on we would meet, upon the heavens up above. But I don't see any hope to make us one again. Just don't follow me behind. Until the day your heart will be assured coz mine will not.

CintA MyA.

2006-09-06T20:57:00.000+08:00

Jaclyn Victor & Misha Omar - Cinta

2006-08-31T22:45:00.000+08:00

C'MON GO FIGURE WHICH WAS MINE?

2006-08-31T22:24:00.000+08:00

La, tout n'est qu'ordre et beaute Luxe, calme et volupte.
(There, there is nothing but order and beauty, Luxury, quiet and sensual pleasure)

*SOMETHING LEARNED DURING TUTORIAL ART HISTORY BY ZARINA, THE LECTURER*

CintA MyA.

2006-08-30T01:40:00.000+08:00

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2006-08-27T16:31:00.000+08:00

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2006-08-27T14:48:00.000+08:00

ok i have to admit.
LASER TREATMENT FOR TATTOO REMOVAL IS FUCKING PAINFUL.
sorry but it seems that my tattoo was nt pretty n recently ther mother got to know so it saddens me so much that she knows. I just wan her to b happy so i'm removing it.
*psst*psst* i'll b doin it again. hehe.
Anyways it was my first session yesterday at one of the private clinic for women @ Simei. The doctor was a malay guy, Mr. Shaifuddin Bin Sidek. He was broadcast during one of the 'Hanyut' episodes. So yea. He told me I had 6-8 sessions. It takes a longer time coz I had colours, multiple colours on my tattoo. And you know wat the freaking nurse said?! "I got to admit, this is a very large tattoo and its so beautiful"
Screw her! She told me bout her son's 21st birthday present which was a tattoo. All the makcik, mother, father and siblings went down to the parlour and accompany her son. BIG MORAL SUPPORT. She told me she wans the tattoo on her son's body to be a CLEAN and HYGIENIC procedure. And farking hell she pay for it.
Anyways, I just wan to advice you guys. If you guys wanna make one, make sure its a BEAUTIFUL ONE like mine AND make sure you get it done where your parents won't know (WHICH IS RIDICULOUS) or get your parents permision. coz once you wan to go for laser, YOU ARE KILLING YOURSELF. it burns through ur skin. Your tears come flowing down NATURALLY after the session. The Aftermath is HORRENDOUS.
Truthfully, Iskander didn't know. Yesterday night I saw him at town. Alot of miscommunication but blaalalala. And then he hugged me right on my right shoulder and he asked whats ths bandage. And then blalalala.. I got a gd lecture. I told him I did when he left me n I only tell myself that I will remove once he comes back to me and never leave me which is BULLSHIT. haha.
We had afew moments that night but it wasn't enuff. GOD-DAMMIT! He had to report/stand-by at his camp because of that stupid IMF thing. fark! i miss him soooooo muchhhhhhhhhhh.

Cinta MyA.

2006-08-25T20:55:00.000+08:00

...gorgeously updating...

What's with all the fats? hehe.
Yes yes. I agree with my coffeeloverboy, khai.
All u need is to eat loads n nvr exercise.
BUT BUT BUT! i got a new theory.

Love yourself before others.
Eat like almost every moment u r nt doin anything.
Nvr nvr nvr exercise except for me DANCING. bottomline, do wat u LOVE doin. even fucking. seriously.
get someone who love you more than you love him n u will b blissfully blissful. *smiling away*
get in a REGULAR bitchfit with your gorgeous girlfriends during your cigarrette break or ur lunch. =) thats wat i always do.
Cut those cigarrettes and add more to those drinking and tattoo-ing.
for me, ART HISTORY N MORE ART HISTORY makes me FAT w/ info.
for Val, mebbe bitching with loads and loads fingerfood will make you fat coz NEITHER will u stop bitching OR eating.

So how is life fer all of you gorgeous people?

me? Don't ask. LASALLE is driving me NUTS. Your projects is like, each time u step into the class NEW PROJECT. each time u go out for a smoking or any break n once u step in class again NEW PROJECT. fucking loadingggggg insideeeee.

and do you ever thought y i even fucking bother changing my link? my gorgeous-yet-selenge gf, niz MET my bf's small sister. WHAT A SMALL WORLD. she happen to sit nex to my gf. then, u noe laaaa my gf kan KEPO! see-see ppl's phone n saw ISK photo. then she ask, " eh ni ISKANDER SHAH kan?" then Niki (Isk's sis) said," How u know? This one my bro." Then relieved, Niz said," Oh this one your bro's gf". and then blalalalalalaa THEN she gave my blogspot to her. farker! this is my obsession.

Oh yea, currently im workin for a short term basis at Bungey Bar as a Barmaid. Still learning those flairing with the bottles. Working behind bars so like so gorgeous, make customers drinks, flair those bottles, n just act gorgeous.

*hint hint* go to the clubs, if u notice only gorgeous girls get to b barmaids. =)

CintA, MyA

2006-08-25T20:38:00.000+08:00

2006-08-15T01:54:00.000+08:00

"When things got to go, you just have to let it go."
I'm not being a bitch or whore (even tho I am) but if ur in my situation, you do what I do.
Things with Syahir was fuuuking boringgg. I try to fit in his kind-of-lepak-matrempit-life but he doesn't fit in my sassy-gorgeous-dancer-kind-of-life. So what the heck right?! I don't giv a fuck anymore. You just want me to complete the picture. A gorgeous lady, a bike and you fooling ard w/ your friends. NO LIFE! It's like every nightttt for god-sake, don't you hav anything better to do?
You don't give a fuck in my life.
We don't sit down alone, have our own time and talk bout us.
You make it a priority to fuck ard and gossip wit ur friends.
Leave me stranded by the side, reading a book?
You don't give a fuck in my life, in my family n me?
You just want me to be there and just labelled "girlfriend"? when i do all the shit.
I don't understand you and you definitely don't understand mine. And will NEVER.
I'm jus so disappointed that I even wasted my time, effort and money with you.
By the end of the day, I GET NOTHING. not even a kiss goodbye.
(Sorry I'm very particular.)
That's how life with you.
Fine that you think ahead but sadly without thinking your limits. too over the hills.
You guys jus dream but nothing.
I don't think I did anything wrong today. Even if your friend saw me holding hands wit myCINTA, I'm not guilty.
I was only in a wrong because I didn't tell you in advance that I need a break-up, I don't love you anymore and I shouldn't coz I'm fucking wasting my time with you.
It's not that I'm cruel. I'm just facing the truth n help you face it too.
I don't care what you & your friends might say. Even if we break off, I'm nt breaking off friendship with your friends I made. Coz it's nt worth it.

Santy said, "Just talk to him (Syahir). I just want you to last in a relationship."
My reply, "I can talk anytime but can he be wise enough to do so? The previous relationship could have last but I was cheated & he left. What can I say?"

Santy said the next day, "I know you very well and clearly seen that you are still in love with Isk. Be with him, follow your heart coz I'll always be there behind you."
My reply, " Thanks. Yes I be with him n follow my heart coz I know you guys are always there everytime I fall down hard on my face."

The recent days I spent my time w/ myCINTA was gorgeous. I mean it was 2-3yrs back when we were together. I love him too much that point of time and I know I still love him so much now. I'm so happy now. Like so happy. So Blissful. It's just speechless.

Aydel did once said," Among all the ex-bfs you told me about, I can see that you love Iskander the most."

True enough. Enough said. It was my fault last time I didn't show him care & concern coz I was too busy with school n dance.
LAST TIME:

We don't take pictures together. SELDOM.
He don't kiss me on the cheek/lips the moment he saw me.
He don't send me home, OFTEN.
He don't kiss me goodbye on the lips, many2 times.
He don't kiss me in public.
He don't hold my hands in public.
He dont hug me when we're standing.
He don't do nothinggg.

NOWWWWWWW:

We took pictures hugging and kissing (sounds mushy? kind of)
He kiss me every chances he got in public.
He hold me tight in his arms.
He put his arms around me and kiss me on the cheeks the moment he saw me just now.
He hold my hands everytime we're together walking.
He hugged me tight and kiss me when we're standing.
He pull me nearer to him and kiss me goodbye 3 times on the lips before reluctantly letting go.
He did almost everything. Things I always dream a boyfriend would do.

I love you Cinta. I always do and forever will. It's been a long time longing to be back with you and we finally did. I'm glad that you still love me coz I'm crazy over the moon loving you and still think bout you after you left. You told me the same thing even if we're both attached with other people last time. We still share our problems we had with our bf/gf. And now we back together for good. I will never leave you unless I'm dead. Promise me you will never too. Love me again, like you always did.

Cinta, MyA.

2006-08-14T15:29:00.000+08:00

2006-08-13T17:52:00.000+08:00

" I don't wanna do this anymore.
I don't wanna take away his life.
Everytime I walk out the door, I see him dying little more inside"

Well the old Siti Ummairah has come back. Like Nisah says, " The bitch is in the house". And seriously and sadly, I've become unfaithful. Even Syahir is stuck in my life, there's always the unfaithful side of me.

Someone has come back...for good! Miss him badly. He was in my life 2 yrs ago and now we're re-opening a new book together. He is of course my girlfriend's FAVOURITE especially VALERIE. hahakz! I will just keep you guys anxious for a moment.

He contacted me back recently and we went out since Saturday the 12th. It was such a gorgeous dawn. We were out all night drinking and was at Bedroom (name of a club u asshole!) till morning. We sat down by the Singapore River, haha in the morning ard 7+ and we just can't leave each other's side. We met again at 8+pm to go watch fireworks at the Esplanade. We planned to go watch movie BUT we ended up at Muhammad Sultan and drink till I was fucking high with OUR friends. And we continue on to MOS, half-drunk but the queue was short the time we arrived and I went in with no hassle. It was like my first time in my clubbing history to go in a club with a boyfriend. Coz I usually go with my friends and never with my boyfriend. And it was so gorgeous. We went in the House/Trance dancefloor. Then to the hiphop/rnb. A mix of somemore liquor made me GONE CASE. We took many many pictures, together coz the time I was with him we never did. haha! Met Adam in the club and he was fucking shocked. haha. After the club I saw IDHAM. haha. Nw Botak already. Oh and I saw my dancers there too. GORGEOUS!

I always believe if we were to patch things up with our ex-bf, somehow the ties between us is even tighter and stronger. We trust each other much better now. Kusma, his bestfriend was there too. He was shocked the first time he saw me. He didnt expect to be me! He made me and ahem! blushed so much when he say, " See wat u done to Ummairah. After you left her, she grown so fucking thin BECAUSE OF YOU. And Ummairah since you left him, he became so much thinner also even though the bitch he was with after you grown so FUCKING FAT coz she said she was happy even when he was WAS NOT." Everyone, Boy, Farhan agreed. Then he said again, " I told you from last time, Ummairah is so much suitable for you. See now! You guys are so obviously meant to be together. Ummairah don't tell me you dun like him? And you! Dun fucking tell me you dun like her either?" hehe! It made us so happy that HE actually kiss me, in public, which he never did. And I was so over-the-moon kind of feeling. Kusma was like," Eh siallah, this is the fucking first time I saw you guys kissing! I tell you already you guys are so meant to be." Haha. These two idiots Kusma and farhan meet these 2 angmoh girls and asked them to sit with us. We were talking and laughing and suddenly one of the angmoh girl who sat beside me said loudly, "You guys are SO CUTE together!" Made my heart smile SO WIDE!

So how? You gorgeous lovely girlfriends and boyfriends of mine. Who's that lucky guy? haha. Valerie, at this point of time sure FUCKING ANXIOUS and wondering who was her favourite Mya's ex-bf? Hehe. It's that goofy guy la. Nisah for SURE know already.

Yes, its Iskander Shah. =)

Cinta(Love), MyA.

2006-08-02T21:29:00.000+08:00

Hey Gorgeous People.
It's been a long time since i update my gorgeous blog.
So here I go writing a long one....

School has started and I'm going CRAZY.
Lasalle-SIA is pack w/ gorgeous people. Like everyone.
Tons of projects and it's just like the 2nd week of school from 2D, 3D, Media and Art Theory. All in 7 weeks.
But it's cool when u meet loads of people, meet up w/ ur stalkers and crushes. Coz I already got one. hehe. naughty. we're doing fine.
My clique is only gorgeous people.
Sam (20++) Tattoo Artist
An (18) True Sweet GayBoy.
Angela (23) Body Art Lover and is the bombshell
Christina (18) Modern AhLian. loves hearts alot.
Ida (18) malay spelling-name but actually ABC. American Born Chinese. Really Ah-moh but w/ singlish accent. So gorgeous. Model for seventeen.
Sarah (18) Lovely sweet honey. Chinese.
Yunita (19) Indonesian Chinese. fucking funny. fucking rich n fucking gorgeous.
Farhan (21) Bartender at Bungey Bar. Hot. one of my besties.
Felicia (19) Barmaid at Bungey Bar. cool dudette. seriously COOL. one of my besties.
Last but not least my favourite, Kin (25) Chinese. Tokyo Drift Driver but Singapore one laahh. HOT. HOT. HOT. And we're in love. Yes and its only the 2nd week of school.

There's loads of other gorgeous people from the Performing Arts. my seniors but too much to list them down laa. But they're all really GORGEOUS TIP TOP EXTREME COOL people.

While all ur lecturers are NORMAL, ours are just GORGEOUS.
eg. Drawing TEST. In the middle of the TEST, lecturer will say, " Ok children, especially MyA's clique, 5 mins go for your SMOKING BREAK, wait for me outside the TRANFORMER (our plce for smoking) then come back fnish ur Drawing Test."

Haha. Life's fun in LASALLE-SIA. Even if its weird and shit, our work all tip top GOOD and we do our work. The Lecturers are so fucking supportive. I agree in this kind of environment, we really are comfortable and able to even learn, study n do more.

Love, MyA.

2006-07-18T23:35:00.000+08:00

Today fucking entry is not gorgeous.
Is so not gorgeous when u hav a very nt-gorgeous bro-in-law.
I don't want to move in with him n my sis.
I'm so fucking angry w/ my sister.
No privacy.
No nothing.
She fucking racksacked my fucking bag & took all my ciggarette.
I only realise when my neighbour, Dhil wanted to come over my place and smoke.
A dragon is OUT, I immediately went to my sis place and demand my stuffs.
That's when my bro-in-law lectured me to the core.
He wanted me to pack my clothes n my stuffs and stay under one roof with him and my sister.
ME? Curfew?
ME? Grounded?
Not ME at all.
And will NEVER be.
It's always been like this. It's always about the brother-in-law when the truth is he's nothing to me.
He has no fucking right.
I don't regard him as part of my family.
He is just around to complete my SISTER'S picture. not mine.

Love, MyA.

2006-07-16T23:52:00.000+08:00

ok here's the thing. IM HUNG-OVER! too much beer too big belly. haha. Now I'm labelled "mabok keleng" & "Baron Queen". ape je. Me & "awak" went to DNS chalet on Saturday. Mingle w/ their gfs n some of the guys from DNS. And I can say I love gorgeous Ida & Baby. They are so good to me. While our bfs were out, we girlfriends were in the room smoking, eating, bitching, laughing and of course jumping on the bed like gorgeousIDIOTS. haha. Imagine this, 2 single-bed made as 1and on that bed were 3 couples. haha. Ida&Zul, Dayat&Baby and me&"awak". Imagine that! BUT then it turn out a lil bit embarrasing for me, Dayat went out to drink so Baby asked me to accompany. We went to smoke & drink w/ them. That was when I LEFT MY "AWAK" ALONE TO SLEEP. So fucking stupid. The worse was that I GOT DRUNK and my nonsense of my true colours start to appear. haha. fuck fuck fuck! I shouldn't hav drank but instead just sleep the night through. HAIZ! terrrrrriiible mistake. It got nasty later on. I can't take it, I went to bed. The other guys followed and made noise in the room and "awak", Zul & Ida woke up. I didn't realise I shouted, hit "awak" wounds and took the blanket all by myself. haha!

(INTERUPTED) I thought "awak" call then guess who? Cornelius Celestinio Rapheal Danker.
CCRD: hey sombong! What are you doing? You don't miss the starbucks boy ah? Bcoz the starbucks boy miss the starbucks girl ALOT!
MYA: Nope. not a bit. Yea wats up Rapheal? What do you one? I thought you flew back to States?
CCRD: I just came back. Going back by next week. Hey are you free 2mr? I wanna asked u out for dinner?
MYA: I can't Rapheal. I got something on.
CCRD: You really got loads of bullshit ah everytime I asked you out. You don't like the
starbucks boy already is it? Hey somebody last time say "start something new"?
MYA: yea i did say that. But nt in the means to start over again a relationship. Can't u see, Can't
u accept the facts that we can't be together? i wouldn't want to waste my time w/ u and
by the end of the day, we BREAK UP.
CCRD: but the past won't repeat itself. I promise.
MYA: past won't repeat itself but you can't change the past but to accept it.
CCRD: oh, you mean out religious difference?
MYA: yea then wat else? Pls Rapheal just accept it that we can't go far. Not even a distance.
Look at us now, just friends. Its so much better, right?
CCRD: but..nvm Mya.
MYA: Just go n get ur rest and call me some other day ok Rapheal. Gd nite.
CCRD: okok. I call u 2mr.
MYA: suit yourself. Bye.
Dream on boy. DON'T CHA wish I was your gorgeous girlfriend again and try to LOOSEN UP MY BUTTONS. BEEP!!! sorry.

Back to the story, yea I think he's upset so I asked him just now and he told me next time just wake him up and tell him. HAIZ! he said at least when I'm drunk I don't make noise like you. HEHE. SORRY AWAK! I was giving him attitude just now. I asked him just now..
MYA: awak, kiter tk kenal sangat asl awak boleh syg kat saye eh?
we don't really know each other but how come you like me?
AWAK: abey kalau nk KENAL SANGAT ngan awak mkn 5 tahun uh cam ni.
then if i wan to get to know you that will take at least 5 years.
MYA: hehe. Tapi seriously, saye tk tanye pasal awak, awak pon tk tanye pasal
saye kan.
hehe. But seriously, I don't asked about u and you don't asked bout me?
AWAK: Awak tk tau pasal saye tapi saye tau banyak bende pasal awak.
That's what you think. But i already know alot bout u.
MYA: kalau setakat dengar kate org kan tk bagus. Awak percaye ke kalau
dorang kate yg burok?
But if you think what other people say is always true, then its not about
me then? you
believe if they say anything nasty?
AWAK: itu antara saye percaye ke tak kan?
That's up to me to listen n to believe or not.
MYA: Ape dorang ckp?
What they say?
AWAK: Ade la.
Got la.
Somehow I was pissed and was like asking him Is it wrong to even know what they say about me? Why are you not telling me? that kind of shits? hehe. then we were quiet for quite a LONG moment. But we were ok. Must say nice2. hehe then everything's ok. HMPH! i'm gonna interoggate him somemore 2mr! I WILL....!
Tomorrow I'm gonna accompany him to the clinic to change his dressing. I hope I MAKE IT THROUGH IN THE MORNING, i hope I CAN WAKE UP~!!!
god help me.

Oh yea, SOMEONE was browsing through or maybe a fan of gorgeousecrets and SOMEHOW i type her BOYFRIEND'S NAME! And maybe she was pissed and told her bf. And now he bf kept asking me did i wrote anything about him. It's not that I wrote a whole long paragraph. And well I'm not interested. Seriously, I don't bother. It's not that the name is the only one in this entire universe. Bleah~

LOVE, MYA.

2006-07-15T02:56:00.000+08:00

hey gorgeous ladies & boys. Today's gorgeous entry is so bout the day before yesterday! And all gorgeous so about him and a pinch, no, mebbe a handful bout his mom =) This is very special or mebbe one of the specials. Oh ya, want to noe one not-the-myaself. She didn't attend her 2 days dance rehearsals for this week. SHE NEVER DID but she did it this week. Wow! Let's Celebrate. I'm not regretting coz I became n still is," Nurse Mya". hehe. Yea, I've been cleaning his wounds, changing his dressing, prepare his meals, massage his head and feet, wipe his body (sexy!), shampoo his hair and other many blablablardy gorgeous things. haha! Irritating right?!
Ok this part if the story is so goregously gorgeous! This was the time we were in the TOILET. hehe. (stop those frigging dirty thoughts of yours) FOR GOD SAKE, we can't possibly be doin anything. His family was having dinner and the door was WIDE OPEN. yea, I was shampoo-ing his hair then his mom was about to go to work. She came to the toilet and gave me SOMETHING. I thought that SOMETHING accidentally snapped from my hand BUT NOOOOO. She gave me a silver, black with bells bracelet. STOP GASPING COZ I AM STILL GASPING TOO. haha! I was like," erm, what's this auntie?" (God gracious Mya, in the name of gorgeously goddess of course its a freaking BRACELET!) And his mom was like," It's a gift for being Syahir's nurse." haha I thought for being Syahir's most gorgeoug girlfriends among the rest. So freaking thick skin. And he was like just standing there, smiling and waiting for me to finish up washing his hair.
Oh, I came by again just now. His grandfather was the one who welcome me. Talk for a while. "Tok da mkn?" "Nenek maner?" blablabla. Then I went to his room. Knock 3 times and went in. He was there, waiting and sleeping. He woke up and smile at me. SO SWEET.
Oh muthafarker! I did the farking mistake AGAIN n I'm really gonna kill myself by jumping off my bed. ARGH! He had appointment, change his dressing @ 9am just now. The night before he send me home and told me, " Awak, saya amek awak kat sini kol 830 ok." " Ok, awak." Then I went back home, confidently sleep and woke up @ 11am~ yea STOP GASPING again. He still went to polyclinic, ALONE. I immediately call him, said I'm so sorry. Yea I was so Sorry. hehe. YEA I WAS SO SORRY. khekhe. it was 12pm. he asked me," Awak dtg umah saya?" " Ntah, saya tak tau. Awak nk saya dtg umah awak?" " Ntah, awak nak?" "Awak bilang saya nak ke tk nk?" And of cozla he said, "Mesti lah nak, awak!" hehehehehehe. who can't resist the gorgeous? cibai~ khekhe. THEN THEN i went to find food, ate and chill ON MY BED and fall asleep. I woke up like 4 FRIGGING HRS LATER. Kanchoing~ I woke up bath and took the cab. See, so loving. khekhe! So that's my goregous day. Hope u gorgeous had ur goegeous day.
To Valerie, hmm.. Maybe this one will be ONE OF THE right ones. haha! fucker!
To Amalina, I'll call you gorgeous and confirm. coz i have to call gorgeous bitch by the name of Valerie Sim Yun Ci.
To my Ally, you will find your sweet love in this cute gorgeous way too. Or maybe way more gorgeously CUTE like YOU, sweetheart.

Love,MyA

2006-07-13T05:56:00.000+08:00

be without you

hehe. now that someone is in love of coz must done to the rhythm. haha ENJOY!

2006-07-13T04:47:00.000+08:00

hehehehehehehehehehehehehe.

I am so freaking gorgeously happy, elated and feeling just wonderful.

I was being proposed. I am so gonna shout now!!!

Ya u know who? It was on13july2006, at 03:55am. BUY TOTO. BUY TOTO! But.. I'm confused. I haven't say anything. I think. Haiyoh! Its just so sudden. hehe.

Francis once said, "Your next boyfriend will b so blessed and lucky to hav you."

Now I hav to say I'm so lucky to hav him even after so many guys proposed from Isaac (tattoo parlour), Kenneth (jap-chi), Fareez, Andriano and bla bla bla, i end up w/ a Mat Melayu Rempit. haha if ur wondering wats Rempit, its bike guys.

Especially to Valerie, this time he is not fat! He is not ugly looking. well he is ugly n adorable. BUT he's acceptable ok! he's a mix of dutch n java. hehe! So its ACCEPTABLE, you can't bitch anymore about my boyfriends being stupid looking or fat! haha!

But GORGEOUS, I don't know. Its so soon. I still can't get over Aydel but I'm head over heels w/ *hehe* so c'mon tag n bitch!

(Interrupted)Haiyah, excited already this stupid Idham asked me go MOS. haiyah fark 2mr Hiphop night. CANNOT CANNOT!

Anyway to Nash & Amalina, don't worry gfs I will next time shout ur gorgeous names out even if i haven't finish my meal ok. hehe. I promise. And GORGEOUS, i will be goin RP by next week ok. This I promise. This week i become NURSE for someone for awhile. So i'll call u guys over the weekend. Muax!

Back to the gorgeous story, yea so i have been scan by his family members, from his cat, Lucky, Grandmother to the Mother to the Father then his Grandfather then his brother then his brother's gf. haha! Had my first cooking of 'jemput-jemput' w/ the mother just now. I WAS PRETTY GOOODDD. haha siak! funnyyyyy.. Anyways yea i was somehow being proposed in a very secondary school n MAT MELAYU way. haha this i hav to admit! haiz.. but its cool. haha I'm cool. let me share some since this blog is just for my gorgeous close readers, haha

S : eh awak tanye sikit leh?

eh can i asked u something?

M: tad jumpe tk nak tnye, mentel! ape die awak?

just now, u didn't want to ask me? wat is it?

S: awak syg kat saye tk bab kan saye da syg kat awak nie, cam ne? kalau

saye sound stead awak leh?

do u like me? coz i like you very much.. how? if i sound u steady can?

...this part very shyy....

M: erm, saye tk main lah text2 ni semue, saye suke dengar suare. awak

kalau boleh genabkan 14July sekali lah (coz its my bdae).

erm, i dun play around with text. somehow i wan to hear it. if you

could make it an effort to say it to me then have it on 14 july since it

falls on my bday date. haha.

S: tu ok senang je...

oh that one very easy.

Then blalalalala.. its sounds so much better in malay. right? hahaha stupidly funny right he asked.. haha While the other guys took the effort to bring me to a cosy fancy restaurant and asked me over a few hundred meal and expensive wine, it was so easy for him. haha text me n WALAAA i'm already head over heels for him... hehe MENTEL nye aku...! hehe..

LOVE MANY2 MYA!

2006-07-10T21:53:00.000+08:00

MERLION, I'M IN LOVE!

2006-07-10T07:01:00.000+08:00

Hey gorgeous.

Unlike any other day, even yesterday, I am very gorgeously happy.

Why? met Syahir just now! wee~

He wore this font colour stussy tee just now. hehe

We went to jb buy his bike things, isi minyak n bought cigarettes.

Today we went a bit further to jb. hehe. very gorgeous night. i mean the weather laaaa.

haiyoh!

then we went to watch OUR favourite soccer team. ITALY!

he had stomachache. poor thing. and i had butterflies. poor things. khekhe.

oh we poor things were riding in the rain just now. hehe.

WET!

i mean we were.. OUR clothes were wet.

haiyoh!

he was quiet. we were quiet even when ITALY won, we still kept quiet. we could only smile to each other once in awhile. hehe.

ANYWAYS, it was a cold weather.

NOTHING HAPPEN!

haiyoh!

So yea, it was so cold n we were shivering on the bike.

khekhe.

OH YA!!!!! I REGRETTED SO MUCH IN THIS PART!!! I REGRETTTTTT!

this was wat happen. MUTHAFARKER. I can kill myself for this.

we were msging when i came back yesterday morning.

so i asked whether he had breakfast.

he said havent yet.

then i told him i havent had breakfast too and so i asked him to go breakfast with me.

then i asked again at where?

then he say at bt gombak ah. he said he pick me up at 1015am at my place (so sweet!)

then!! then!! i say ok lorh. i sleep first later u on the way u call my phone till i reject ok then i go shower n meet u downstairs.

it was only 8am.

So I slept n didnt wake up only until 8PM!!

i felt like cryinggggggg coz i was so stupiddd!!!!!!!

i wasted one morninggg breakfast w/ him.

fark all because i was farkingggg sleepiingggg

haiyoh! angry alreadyyyy...!!

Love, MyA

2006-07-09T23:00:00.000+08:00

hey gorgeous again.

now life have been unfaithful again.

i start a new life but still once in a while running back to the past.

yesterday night was wrecked.

went out w/ kenneth. for a date.

at the same time i have to go back to Isaac's tattoo parlour.

and it all happens in town.

me n kenneth went to eat billy bombers n i saw my gorgeous darlings;

Ana, nashriah, amalina n blalala. there were a few gorgeous ard.

but the gorgeous were ALLY N SASHA! they called me out n we kiss kiss n hug hug n..GORGEOUS GORGEOUS.

U GIRLS ARE SO HOT!! MUAX MUAX

so i had to go back to Isaac's n wait for him.

we plan to club at devils' bar because i was planning to bumpinto Aydel.

but somehow i hate the crowd! if u were to style-check them, u rate them a negative 10!

Anyways, i end up w/ wabul n the gorgeous drag @ a gay club! woohoo!

i left isaac at newasiabar where all the celebs are. jot it down.

it was such a gorgeous night w/ tequila bom u can just sit outside the club n see people fight! haha

but when fight's over that is when u start that shake-the-booty!

ok like any normal club

u will see bump&grind between two opposite sex but imagine only pure guys.
n when usually u will see a girl conquering the podium, it will b the guy with big abs.
n EVEN if u were the only GORGEOUS GIRL in that club surrounded by many many CUTE, i mean CUTE guys, u will not steal the limelight NOT EVEN a single will feast their eyes on u.

Some of my shemales friends were so gorgeous. their ASSETS are way more bigger than WE NORMAL GIRLS n they r more GORGEOUSS! so anyway as i was goin back n walking past DesireBar, the Bar i got labelled. yea they called me n everybody else was looking. i was embarrased. I SAW JIMMYYYY. my favourite bartender. He's now at bumblebeebar. jot it down. HE'S HOT!

Anyway.. n HE'S NOT GAY! Anyways guess who i saw, damn this was so gorgeous!!!! I saw that gorgeous DoorBitch from butterfactory, Fathila. She was so different!! n so damn pure gorgeous. She looks like Matilda from Singapore Idol but way more hotter!

So that's how the day end. not just quite yet. i met Isaac back at devils' bar. n ppl were like looking at us. WHY?

gorgeous couple. gorgeous attitude. style-check? rated gorgeous 11/10. n gorgeous body art for both! n thats just rated GORGEOUS!

that's about it. for today.

im goin out w/ syahir to jb in awhile. Another unfaithful Mya.

...updating non-important but still gorgeous...

i miss my gorgeous NISAH!!!
i'M IN LOVE.
Fareez called me n asking to patch things up between us that's straining.
I'm confused.
Whatever it is I'm staying Gorgeous

Love, MyA.

2006-07-08T10:41:00.000+08:00

PAINLESS BEAUTY.... go FIGURE psst and this were the colours..

2006-07-07T22:29:00.000+08:00

hey gorgeous people again.
...updating...
My heart smiled wide when i hear the msg tone.
I giggle, laugh n jump around when i saw that only name.
It can't b anyone else except... hehe.. -go figure-

Anyways i had dance last tues & thurs.
Tues was Capoeira w/ Tobes.
he told me that i was the "new gem" in capoeira.
cool or what?!
thurs was usual dance w/ gorgeous ppl.
we had fun. so much fun! we stole the limelight even though there were at least 10 skaters around showin off their stunts. how gorgeous!

yea but later while havin my cigarette, just chillin, i tried to call aydel at his no. but HEARTPAIN when i heard, " the subscriber you are trying to call is presently not in service."
haiz. tears just kept on pouring. but im cool. i got dance shake-that-booty routine to think bout rather than him.. bleah!

so yea, supposedly today go out w/ syahir but poor thing, he slept till he can't wake up. n me? i waited till i slept. poor things. haha.
but its all cool. there's always a next time.

anyways gorgeous, fareez text me recently saying sorry for being a complete jerk.
fareez: hey.. how hav u been doin?
mya: i am perfectly fine right after u left me.
fareez: what's up w/ that? anyway my uncle who took care of me since young just passed away so i had to flew back to jakarta for 2 weeks.
mya: im sorry to hear that. but u shud at least tell me. but u didnt like as if i was just a stranger.
fareez: im sorry. i just need time alone to grieve. are u mad?
mya: if im mad fareez, then u shud try harder.
fareez: wat do u wan me to do?
(supposedly she wanted to say) : tiffany n co. bracelet
(but mya said) : nvm. just forget bout it. i cant talk right now. im goin for my dance. i call u whenever im free ok. bye.
fareez: hey dun be like this, im truly sorry...

Blalalalala.. just shut ur craappp boy...

Bein a bitch, i got loads of bitchy scenerio in my mind just waiting to put it to act like..

slapping aydel in public n making him fucking embarrased.
if he has a girl next to her n tried to be a "sweetheart", i wud definitely say, " you wudn't wan to b handicapped honey"
slapped his face again w/ a helmet. and tell him off, " you robbed a girl from her fortune n u robbed a girl from her happiness. go n find ur own family happiness. "
i will then, make that girl n him embarrased. " so gf, it is comfortable sitting just sitting on that bike, of course it is, its some other girl's money who pay for it, see all that food, clothes ur wearing all from other's girl money.
maybe i would wan to hit his head against a pole n let him bleed.

but oh-weell just happens if i see him. hehe.

Love, MyA.

2006-07-06T06:25:00.000+08:00

Ratu - Di Dadaku Ada Kamu

2006-07-05T06:51:00.000+08:00

"...Namun aku bingung

Ketika dia bilang cinta

Dan dia juga katakan'tuk ingin jadi kekasihku
Cukuplah saja berteman denganku

Janganlah kau meminta lebih

Kutak mungkin mencintaimu

Kita berteman sajaTeman tapi mesra..."

tralalalala...

goes out to sweet things out there, I'm sorry.

For the covenience of my non-indonesian bitches,

I'm confused

when you tell me you love me and propose to be my lover

enough is enough that we're friends

coz i can't possibly love you.

Dont asked for more.

Just be friends, friends for fun times.

naughty, naughty.

And this is fucking hell for Missy Ana d'kruz!

one more guy from you n i'll asked you to suck the smallest nut you'll never want it as a present.

but but Syahmir is kindda cute. khekhe! fast game u know, msg here msg there KABOOM off we went to jb already. hehe~

got myself Maggi Goreng, pedas punya. burger ramli. milo ais. 2 box of cigarettes. and walaaaaa

ITALY-GERMANY

2-0

muahahahaha...

hey i sound so happy. erm maybe syahmir has done miracles.

Evill....

anyways i wanna thanks shalisa for her blogmusic background, makes my morning bliss while typin my entry.

hehe. and erm..ya

blalalalalala....ok that's it.

Love, MyA

2006-07-03T23:26:00.000+08:00

You've once wrote,

"I love you so much too. Only god knows how long this heart will keep on beating. But the most important thing is that 'i' know what the beat is all about. And its about 'You'.

You don't need a knife to stop my heart from beating. Only lies.

All that's left is just memories, movie tickets, pictures and Barney.

It confused me that I'm still in love with you.

No other man could replace you, for now it is.

I don't want to stop loving neither do I wanna start to love.

All these while you have given me love and strength, like any other family would provide me but why did you have to change.

The only thing that separates us is just monetary.

I have made alot of mistakes but why must the biggest mistake and regret be the one I love very much, my first love?

I did nothing wrong to jeopardise our relationship and I know you didn't too.

I'm foolish to even think about you after all you did to me.

But I'm helpless.

The memories are over-whelming and it feels so yesterday.

My gorgeousecrets have yet to unveil the darkest secrets but sometimes I felt betrayed.

Now, that I've made my decision. It hurts inside knowing that it has ended.

Our 1 year anniversary is not even around the corner, let alone your birthday.

There will be no junior Isabella Izreel nor Irdanyshah Idham, no even us.

It was you, I spent most of my time.

It was you whom I love and treasure.

It was you whom I thought to live for another decade.

But it was you who will be my darkest nightmare of love.

goodbye Ardellyshah Adame.

It was all about you that I'm hoping for.

2006-07-02T07:48:00.000+08:00

So it has ended. actually for quite sometime.

9 months of sweet & blissful memories all ended with lies.

i'm missing you but i'm strong.

i can't forget you but i have too.

i wished we could stay a little bit longer or maybe forever but not a single second could we even hold on to each other.

it shouldn't end this way aydel, it could have been better.

What went wrong with you? I'm clueless.

we were happy but you changed.

I left you coz I could no longer love the new you.

But the love I had for you is still goin strong and I know you feel the same way too.

I wished you only knew what i felt but these are left to be my gorgeousecrets.

Love, dearMyA

2006-07-01T06:12:00.000+08:00

Hey Gorgeous People.

So how was those past gorgeous times?

It's so gorgeous for me. uh-huh. I was spending the entire days w/ gorgeous Bonda. we went shoppin like any other true girlfriends do and I'm loving it Mom, every second of it. Yea, so I had to tell her everything in my life. Like everything. Even 'bout what I feel, felt and still feeling now bout Barney and Fareez. bla bla bla.

Haha, it was a big joke when I told him Andrew Carver was so in love w/ me but I just don't give a shit, especially when it comes to Francis Anthony, she freak out. She was like they were all wife-beater. what-the-fuck Mom?? Just because somehow Andrew is Caucasian & Francis is somehow Indian-Chinese? Well she doesn't like it about Sher Iqbal Texeira. " No no my child, Pakistan-Arab will do you no goodd" HOLD IT MOM. Isn't Dad Arab too? or maybe Dad is just pure Arab. Oh n when it comes to Andriano, she was like " Oh y nt, if 30K of dowry don't trigger his left nut" that kind of shit. heh.. But Mom Chinese-Indo? It's not a good thing when their Chinese? FHM statistic says they have the smallest nut of all. heh..

I'm makin a police report about all those mess up shits that Aydel is doin to me. Maybe when the day I actually wake up like at least a frigging 12 noon.

I don't wake up until its 5pm.

And my sister-of-lurve & Mom is really making things so much better. They bought me Esprit bunch of tees and ya perfume from.. FRIGGING MANGO (argh!) and the other from Feragamo. Lovelyyyy..

So ya, mebbe that feeling of love I'm still having towards Aydel is so there still. But it leaves me w/ just memories n he was my BIGGEST mistake.

And by the end of the day, my mom still likes Fareez. But again, Fareez was like the biggest mistake too. But I'm so not thinking about all those shits right now. I'm so excited about school and hopefully it won't die down after a few hrs in that school. that is so nt gorgeous.

Love, Mya.

2006-06-24T20:40:00.000+08:00

*KRUZ day outtttttttzzz*
lasst minute planning.

we went to Sentosaaaaaaaa...

loads of hulks especially the ones at Pahlawan..

weewitttt! thumbs upppp boyssss.

met the girls in the mornin and had breakfast@ MACD.

early in the mornin, cleanse my eyes. khekhe.

you know what i meannnnnn.

ok ok stop it.

hey hey hey. now my kat got boyfriendd..

weewit.. hehe! best of luck w/ jerks. if he is. then he suck the shephard's left nut.

khekhe.

oh n ya we CAMWHORE alotttttt...!!

right Ana... khekhe

so we went to town n had coffeeee...

now I'm getting readyyy to go out again..to...

ATTICA w/ sweetheart Andrew Carver.

muah.

LOVE, MYA.

2006-06-23T22:44:00.000+08:00

.hey gorgeous.

STRESS. STRESS. STRESS.

when ur money containing a few thousand dollars is at stake w/ someone you trust, care and love, YOU ARE STRESS.

after all this months, you guys would always think Aydellyshah Adame is the man.

He can suck a Shephard dog's left nut!

So ya, I'm so damn angry to the core.

So yu can imaging how much tears? Till now, it has become the drought sesaon.

Anyway a few days ago, spent the time w/ Iman & Cinta.

We went road trip. Touch&Go Johore.

Buy ciggies & top-up their bike's fuel.

Started off from 4 am.

Spent the time watchin soccer, bitching, stupid games, pitching of nipples and what-not!

These people has been in touch for almost 8 years.

since i was Pri4.

hahakz!

It's been a long time... now they are already in their early 20s.

Oh, its been a long time they've seen me, Now i got a NEW nickname.

Skelly.

surname? Tan

full name? Skelly Tan. heh...(skeleton)

they will always call me Amoi, Skelly, Olive.

They've seen my past photos in friendster. They've been with me since my rugby days.

They are shocked what have become of me NOW.

well, evryone is. heh..

Enough of them already.

2mr is a big day. going sentosa w/ KRUZ.

gonna update again later w/ PICTURESSS.

yea.. we gonna CAMWHOREEEEEE!!!!

love, MyA

2006-06-20T20:07:00.000+08:00

.GorgeousForever.

updating now for gorgeousLoyal readers.

the girl is starting a new life.

A life more blissful from all chaos & mayhem.

She has been partyin out w/ the white boys, Andrew Carver & Zai.

Things have been so serene w/ Nisah by her side.

Barney? They could have work things out but seems that it never did.

9 months w/ him was Experiencing Hell on Heaven.

too much things happen.

but every disaster comes new fortune.

one goes. several more come.

SHE LOVES GOD.

But shits is not done and over.

A lot of things still hanging between them.

Watever misfortune that has happened,

she will stand on her feet n move again.

She's in me. The beauty sight of me.

You can see her. Body so swift so marquillaz, never excrescenes.

She's the reason my interest and curiosity piqued out of me.

My singular ability of a tortured soul by exaberation of my surroundings and fraught by hardships.

She has help me find hope and courage to live on amidst of the madness world.

Ensconced by the eerily silent surrounds, She has made me so esctatically to believe music work wonders around my body and made group huddled closer to me.

Never dreary.

Never disgruntled.

She made in me just blissful.

She's within me always.

She's the Dancer in me. Emotionally and Physically.

*Never it was a room of trends to follow.

Never it was a hall of fame.

It was my home, my passion- the DanceFloor*

2006-04-28T21:00:00.000+08:00

hey .sweethearts.
my day was wreck!
had dance yesterday, and maha grande blueblack on my knees.
did some floor sexy moves and over-stressed it and got my maha-present.
but....

.my barney. came and bought fer my nasi lemak fer breakfast.so sweet.

very delicious.

OH AND he bought me.... A MAHA-DOUBLE GRANDE FIREMAN BARNEYYYYYY

working today till 1am.

tk leh angkat ok.

irritating day.

irritating body. cannot even stand properly.always hitting metal stuffs.

irritating head. always banging on things.

irriatating nose. always bleeding.

irritating room. never tidy.

juz irritating....

2006-04-25T16:50:00.000+08:00

Hey .lovelies.
this entry is for my sweeetheart coffee boy- Mr. Kerolz's SAKE.
I'm at work havin my break. fun day. but oh-farking-well I'm freakin tired.
Came late for work. As usual.But Thank You to my sweet-loving Managers.

Spinnin' those floors.
I'm still having dance practices @ YP w/ Ewan & the dancers. Sweating it out only every Thurs.
So Mr.Kerolz if u miss me juz spin down toYP ok ard 5pm?
gettin' ready for my performance. Don't know when. juz farkin perfeectttt.

School?
paid my fees w/ daddy of lurve.
caught him smokin the other day.
You naughty stubborn oldman.
Juz remember only your sweet daughter can smoke.
oh ya the new campus is so gorgeous! =)

Barney of lurve?
Bz w/ work.
Bz runnin errands.
Bz makin my life Bliss.
I love you. Very much. always.
.7+months and still counting....

Myself?
i'm so doin fine.
work. dance. barney. family. and later school.

girlfriends?
To Ana,
howabout? we're in the same boat now.
the father of lurve.
but hey juz b a gd daughter.
help him in every way ok.
I know how it feels.

And well I'm so hppy my old-time girlfriend is having a great time. with her new friends.
You're feeling great and lookin great.

.END.

2006-04-15T20:36:00.001+08:00

hey hey hey honeys!

well the former class of mine definitely had a great time at the barbeque last thurs @ Pending?? yea..

So had loads of foods loads of liquor loads of fun.

We catched up a lot of stuffs from school to real life.

And I can see that u guys are moving on quite fine.

Me? I'm as usual. Start new work.

great place. great people. great pay.

To Valerie the biatch I like.

Its a pity I didn't come along to Zouk with u guys.

I mean I DESERVE TO WIN. haha!

well nvm 30th May @ MOS? i hope u guys can make it bitch!

Coz I can't wait to rock the dancefloor.

Same night more fun.

Went out with the siblings for a movie.

" TAKE THE LEAD"

never follow

Its was Sumberp!

Loads of dancing.

Loads of passion.

Loads of myself.

hehe.

2006-04-06T01:28:00.000+08:00

Gd mornin' sweethearts.

So sorry fer my blog fans who constantly reads my entries coz I've been bz lately wit loads of stuffs. maybe.

So the gorgeous nw is officially a LASALLE-SIA student.

"phew nw that she's nt in my skul, im so far away frm her bitchiness"

Yes. I'm in RP nor TP nor watever P.

gorgeous is so lookin forward to spin in her new campus.

mua bf was there. he accompanied to and fro for auditions. luv you.

So gorgeous had her dance audition @ PA.

Accompanied by mua family, YES FAMILY.

Mua dancers were there- Melissa, Dion and the beeyouteeful drags.

Luv you guys.

though mua bf wasn't there, He's supporting me so much through the phone calls.

So it's been half a year i've been with him.

and i'm feeling so great.

So many ups & downs and I'm feelin the thrill ride I'm enjoying.

he's done too much great things for me.

Things that no other boyfriends could ever done.

Seriously.

He's the greatest I ever had.

Loving u more each minute.

2006-03-14T21:13:00.000+08:00

HELOO HELLLO EVERY BODYYYY~~
"....it's been a lo0o0ongggg timeeeee..such a lo0o0o0ongg timeeeee....."
Well I jus come back from the Pasar Malam @ Senja and bought myself Burger Ramli, more Burger Ramli, some fruits for the mother..bla..bla..bla n Best of all, Splurge on Strawberry Shortcakes. woohoo~ bought the stickers, the towel, the bedroom slippers, ink stamp & passport holder! Walaaaa~~~
The purple dinosaur was like " So what did you buy?"
Estactically the gf said " More Strawberry Shortcakes! "
That angry dinosaur said " Palaotak kau lah! Merepek aje tau beli yg bukan-bukan "
Hey listen up u FAT PURPLE DINOSAUR! This is not bukan-bukan okay! This is cute & adorable cartoon! Some other boyfriends even had Strawberry Shortcakes pasted on their guitar, so why can't your bike later on? =ppppppp

Life. been boring. except my dance shows, my tutoring classes I've conducted, more dance practises- well miss the ones with EllyMellyBario~BONCET!, more outings with the Barney- like Everyday and family reunions had keep me well-occupied! But what made my life even more Happeninggggggg was.....!!!!

My beloved Father-of-Love had personally came to ask me to go for a audition and be a certified dancer/choreographer/or whatever thats got to do with dancingggg!!
I LOVE YOU VERY VERY MUCHIEEEEE DADAAAAAAAAAAA! MUAHKZ!

till my next life entry, the dancer keep on spinning

2006-03-05T23:50:00.000+08:00

This freaking ANONYMOUS bitch juz freaking Annoyingggggggg me..
She's been asking ard where I got posted to. Like really.
U-JAE
Me-DAE
go figure!
So what if I got posted to the same campus as you?
Why? You afraid that I'll be your living nightmare. Well.. too bad. Then I am=)
bluuuuurrrr... bitches these days are juz so kampung-ishhhh..

2006-03-03T23:52:00.000+08:00

This is my new boyfriend- Danish Firhan.

Yes he will currently replace Ardellyshah Adame for the moment.

nah juz joking.

I LOVE THIS GUY, LIKE TOTALLY.

He's so Adorable!

He's freaking Cute!

He's just Perfect!

And he will always be the Love of My Life,

and of coz the Barney.

I'm starting to miss him so much.

Miss him more than I miss the Barney,

so you can feel how much I miss him.

But Whatever it is,

I LOVE ARDEL&DANISH.

to Barney, don't you think it sound so familiar only that my Isabelle is missing? damn! I mean " I LOVE ARDEL&DANISH".

2006-03-01T19:23:00.000+08:00

Back to school again.

Zhenghua was recommended by MOE to be the 3 selected school to perform @ Fullerton Hotel. So honoured. Well Zhenghua should be.

As for me and the senior dancers, we were asked to volunteer so WE ABSOLUTELY DID!

2 days of rehearsal and I'm worn out, TOTALLY.

But it was great fun.

Anywayz 2mr is my one of mua big day. I'm meeting someone w/ Barney of coz.

He should be extremely Cute! But oh-well he's turning 1 yr. hur-hur!

I just can't waitttt.....

2006-02-28T00:44:00.000+08:00

*feelin' extraodinary sarcastic*

I just remember to post one blardy topic.

The Barney was like,"If you ever post this, that particular person will definitely get the pinch of salt."

It's about "Teman Anugerahku".

Yea the first episode.

Its about the mother from one of the buddies.

She somehow fark those boys up.

Likewise one of the boys,"Eh aku tak nak kawan ngan si dia tu lagi uh."

And the other one was like,"Eh jgn gitu lah kan dia dah kawan dia dari sekolah menengah lagi!"

Well I think it goes like that cause I didn't watch it. I got from RELIABLE SOURCES.

When some of you will not/never get it, mayb some of you who knows who I'm refering to might understand.

So whatever you get from your bestfriend's Mom especially, it WON'T FARKING MATTER.

Cause its the FRIENDSHIP that matters.

But whatever,

Now it doesn't farking matter to me anymore.

2006-02-26T15:20:00.000+08:00

Biggest Bimbotic Kampung Bitch is somewhere not far from me!
She's so ignorant.
She's farking nuisance.
She's Just God-damn Irritating.
Mebbe She's been influence by her surroundings.
Poor Child.

2006-02-25T21:53:00.000+08:00

*Feelin' extraodinary BORED*

I should be out Spinning by the DJ, chilling by the Bar, Bitchin' wit the girls & bla..bla..bla..

But NO sweethearts I'm at home with the family.

Eating BIG by the TV set, laughing our hearts out.

The Barney, at the Cousin's place. Can stop about that fat dinosaur.

I terribly MISS HIM. The more I talk bout him, the mix of ANGER, MISSED & MORE ANGER.

YES! I can't do with it any longer. arghh!

Anyways I waiting for the Barney to call me.

bla..bla..bla..

Anyway now that I made a record; at home on Saturday, I treat myself to MacDonalds, Chocs Blended Ice w/ pearls & cheng teng.

fark-ke-donga

Thats life for today.

2006-02-24T11:15:00.000+08:00

ganging up with bitch partner Valerie Sim Yun Ci.

"A simple pair of jeans from Far East is just...normal. But by jazzing it up with cutesy vintage accesories and a jaw-dropping-fabolous top, rest assured that you'll get all the attention you want. You can do it without being branded." quoted by Valerie, 23-02-2006

ok ok somebody is feeling extraodinary bitchy this season. & I know who she meant. Is the chaow-ah-lian u refering to, reading ur entry? Well it will make a great big deal if she's reading this. But refering back to what you said, its true enuff. Well whatever it is let them be. Its JUST starting to grow in them. hurhur!

Well its 11:29am right now. I am supposed to go for an interview at 11. The barney is dwnstairs, as usual at 930am from Tampines. He went dwn all the way to Fajar Rd to buy me breakfast & accompany me the whole morning or day or just for a while. Bla..
Today is just for while. Boring... That's for this morning.

*DADA*

2006-02-22T21:08:00.000+08:00

Some ppl juz sucks big time.
The ways they talk are so ignorant.
Wats up wit "take care of your own panties"?!
Are those minahs can't think of other farking ENGLISH sentences.
Not Literally meant but its so pathetic.
Anyway enuff of her. Boring nuisance to bitch about.
At least i had a motive to juz care for her.
Bla..

The other one was like, "its juz nt me to giv up".
Another irritating woman.
"Juz dun need to entertain strangers"
Like as if I dun noe what you been doin back at school. Kampung bitch.
These ppl are juz no match in the ring.

So Amalina.. Mebbe nobody wans to in the ring with me?
why?
bla..bla..mebbe some ppl juz dun get it. They're lost n they juz wave that white flag.
-end-

I miss my dance class today.
Auntie Wan gon kill me for this.
Show's on friday & I'm juz hooray hooray-ing
fark-ke-donga

I miss Boncet!
I miss Mama Voke! aka Feeza
I miss Adq Cute! aka Ally
I miss everybody & of coz the Barney. blaaa...
I miss the partys, the drinks, the spinning & wat-not - the bitching!
I miss pre-rouge with the Indo Ladies-Ria,Githa,Gi,Franka..
I miss my happenings.
Its totally getting boring day-by-day w/o any reunions & when its difficult when they're far away.

end of bitching & here comes my real life.

2006-02-22T00:04:00.000+08:00

.......nt jealous or juz fer the fun of it to bitch bout u,

at least I can still see that u still care to keep track with my entries.

I was juz catchin some attention in a rude manner. My bet.

You once said when I talk I dun realise other ppl are swearing. So.. watever.

You find happiness anywhere everytime.

Mayb with me, you get hell. Its an advantage.

So nex time you'll b strong enuff to withstand those kampung bitches in ur school.

Coz I know what its like there. Nt that I've been there but... loads of gfs from such places.

I know you hav none.

And bout your gigs, I'm juz too frustated that I can't come n watch.period.

Well at least you came by , stating your true facts that you're happy.

Coz that was my motive..

Dada.

Well if you mean gf was a true friend in your dictionary then your so wrong.

Its a term for me to use it on my true friends or a stranger who is a girl/drag.

Its better than the term "bitch" u use on me.

And in ur case its the stranger.

Well FOREVER LABELLED MANGO is a nice label.

MANGO is a pretty much..erm..

nice labels.

nice outfits.

coz i do wear them to.

But not obsessively.

Being unfriendly to u was nt an intention.

Its juz my stuck up face that ruin the minds of ppl who naively misunderstood.

Coz I do hav friends at school.

Loads.

So Am I that unfriendly to you?

Or mebbe your stuck up attitude towards my gfs u bitch ard that bores me to get to know u?

Its not pay back juz stating some facts on your false statement.

Think bout it.

oh and ya PSST!..I go to school, finish my Sec 4 Express Education, got an O level cert n what-not so I dun need you to exaggerate the meaning of words i wrote in my last entry.

Appealing for bad in numbers got nothing to do with entries IN ENGLISH

anyway thanks fer dropping by n advertising my blogspot in your entry.

too honoured.

but dun need it coz u already said

"and for goodness sake, i swear i have no gf like her. she's umm...TOO POPULAR to be my gf"

;)

I'm nt changing topics or wat-nt.

Back to the bitchin..Alone!

Well juz nw me & the Barney went out.

Best part : Tour at TOY'R'US

So while the Barney went & buy ciggys(i mean before that), I check out some stuffs;Starwberry Shortcakes.

Everyone in the world craves for it, so I was curious.

& Well I bought one myself =)

Pink Panther was hilarious but the Barney snores away.....................................

I'm farking craving for Satay.

Hey faaat asss Barney, If We don't eat Satay 2mr I kick u off the bike & I ride!

Anyway he insisted eating at Suntec " Alah LaoPaSat very far lah dear...!"

fark-ke-donga!!

And well I bought myself a T-shirt from FoxWomen.

Sexy.

Stylish.

Feminine Rockstar.

So gfs, its nt the label that counts, Its hw u put old racks into action.

Till ma nex bitchin'. Till nw the dancer keep spinning.

2006-02-21T00:09:00.000+08:00

Ok let' bytch.
Ngapain Bytch?
Oh juz feelin' it thru the body,& can't wait to let it out of my mouth.

Ok deh gue kangen banget sama cewek gue, Elly & juga cowok Kenit, Mr Cinderella dan juga pacaran gue Barney dan yg lain. Ya uda nggak mau mubaran lagi sih! pahamin gue la~~

Juz hung up wit the Ex, Cornelius Celestinio Rapheal Danker. He can't seem to get the reality. U'r being ditched boyfriend! Ok that's too cruel. I mean we're juz friends ok But we're still having lunch, dinner n supper. We're still watchin movies, hang out & bitch. hurhur~! Oh yeah I juz wanna cogratulate ur "DJ'ing competition". sorry i didnt came to Zouk? Phuture? or was it MOS? damn boy! Anyway i would love to see you spin those decks..! Anyways we'll meet up soon. & I promise to find u a caucasian and spanish bitch juz like you. And CATHOLIC too. *MUAHKZ*

...Well You can also check out my FOREVER LABELLED MANGO MINAH gf. She's longing to be touched, kissed n what-not! Don't sound so desperate gf. but well salute for your ever-last bimbo frankness.Ok STOP IT MYA! Anyway.. you would'nt be interested. your rich, hot (body of a army commander. what the fark are u thinkin?), well.. caring but defintely NOT SMART.

NGAPAIN DEH GUE?
NGAPIN BEGINI?
NGGAK TAU.. EH TUNGGU ADA LAGI YG MAU DIBICARAIN.

ok so what with all those gigs she's been having. Singing? the forever slaving-over bf? the drama? the act of being happy? well i hope u r. Boy.. ur tt bz findin happiness? or erm..a part in a controversial drama?.. But well don't get too hook up with your surroundings at school or at home? Or you...oh well..get hook up wit fantasy too...

Strawberry Shortcakes? Whats up wit that? Tell me more. better than than THE HILTONS?

Bout the bf now? nvm.. NEXT!

Ok bout him...its personal..! But well i can n would crack it out a lil bit. Us. It's nt all negative. In fact, its positivity ruling!! Oh well mebbe his DRZ400 aka Dirt Bike aka Scrambler can get me off his mind for awhile. I tell u. This is "that babysitter". Fuih!!! But I well...erm... I...ok ok nvm...WELL...

I LOVE MY BARNEY....(there she goes again)
"...I love u...U love me...We are happy familyyy..."

End of bitchin' not the best n simply nt the end.

2006-02-12T02:42:00.000+08:00

It is past midnight
and I can't seem to go to sleep.
Every time I close my eyes ,
I see a picture of your face.
I try to tink of something else,
but all of my thoughts are
just about you in your embrace.
my heart beats your name
every time I try the counting game.
Every second I remain awake,
I get closer to the moment
when your arms open for me to take.
It never occurred to me
that I would miss you this much,
even a butterfly touch.
Outside my window I see a million stars ,
with every twinkle I see
I wish it were your eye .
Wat I want is to be with yo ,
dreaming just won't do.

A poem by the ex, Cornelius Celestinio Rapheal Danker
A sweet one but sadly we're juz mean to be friends &
I hope you would truly understand. Starbucks Boy;)

2006-02-11T00:24:00.000+08:00

Hey Hey Hey

Mua family had a reunion just nw.

A family reunion cum my achievement.

We had dinner, a sumptuous one @ Bedok. We had so much.

But the great thing as everybody was there except Barney. He had some other Important stuffs to settle so be it.

Anyways everybody was there including my Auntie & Uncle who live nearby at Bedok.

We had a great time. I MISS THOSE TIMES WE USE TO HAVE.

yeah! everybody was so busy with their work.

And I was busy finding something to do.

That was life then. But i hope it's coming to an end ;)

to mua darling Andrew & Zai sorry I can't make it to Indochine.

Commitments to the boyfriend ya'noe. BORING! but ot to worry nex time I promise. Mwah!

2006-02-10T18:23:00.000+08:00

See that gorgeous-in-black chic in the middle. hurhur! Met this beeyouteeful girls just now to get those awful results. Watever it is I pass got to MI but I'm jus to fark up wit those results. So Gonna take my " Integrated Event Management Course" @ RP & at the same time retake my O Level. That is wat i wanna do. So be it. -End-

Anyway I'm waitin fer the whole family to get ready. We're goin to have a sumptuous meal outside. wee~~ hehe so one of the item in the wishlist is a cut off! Anyways I'm waiting for Ardellyshah Adame. Where is he? So difficult no phone. Bluekkkk..! Waiting for my Motorola V3i. Hur Hur!

-VALENTINE DAY-

Anyway Valentine's day is juz around the corner. And it will b too envious to hear wat my darling has plan for me. u can juz hear the small part.

"Rasa Sentosa Shangrila"

"Breakfast on bed"

"Dinner by the sea"

You want more? hehe ok stop it. anyways I'm nt yet happy still. I wanna get in my preferred school & settle down & start my life damn straight & right & then I'll b happy.

Mwah.Luv Maia.

2006-02-07T00:45:00.000+08:00

HELO HELLO HELLLO~~~!!!!
Mayattt in da hse..
Last Friday @ CHIJMES was great.
Had show with EllyMellyBarino-Boncetttttttttttt!!!!
& we got a contract at that club. SO GOOODDDD.
Then someone shouted my name across RAFFLES CITY "UMMAIRAHHHH...!!"
hehe! That BITCH VALERIE SIM YUN CI!!!!

And we head down to town n grab something to eat.
Met Isaac &............FAREEEEEEZZZZZZZZZZZZZ!!!!!!
We sat dwn at Coffee Bean n we got many many drinks frm MR. CINDERELLAAAAA....
Spank U Spank U!!!!! *MUAHKZ*

Then the nex day me & Boncet went to town.
Grab lunch. & went off to Cityhall. *party wit' da emcees*
Decided to go M.O.S. wit the girlfriends
But I got a gd shoutin' by the boyfriend.
Life with them. You can't do anything & this is juz hw i feel.
Never did hear him shoutin b4.
Adrenaline rush all over me. I was damn shocked.
I didnt know wat to do but juz head dwn his place.
& what i got? Juz sorries n nothing more. Went to eat & that's it!
Haiz..!

juz wanna tell elly I'm sorry we can't party together.
But f ur reading this I promise for another MOS nex sat.
Ask your bibik emcees along ya..n we gonna rock dwn the podiums!

Luv u.

2006-02-01T18:58:00.000+08:00

Ok Febulous Febuary.

Emphasizin' my green font because ELLYMELLYBARINO-BONCET IN DA HSE!

*sinister smile*

Only i can call her that.OKAY!

She's wearin' green top today.

Or Am i juz out of colour to choose from.

Ok Febulous.

I won't 4get the party.(Like that- Mairah Carey)

"I'm here to have a party...No tears No cries...Im juz here to have a paaarttyyy...."

Ok GOLDASE HERE I COMEEEEEEEEE TO RUN DWN THA DANCEFLOOR WITH......

BONCET & MAYAT ROCKINNNNNNN'~!!!!!!!

oK Stop it eh~!

This tyme MY BF U HAVE TO SHUT UP & LET ME PARTY....!

oK Mr. K

Thanks fer the Blended Ice Chocs.

SUMBERPPPP!~~

oh ya we'll b goin' again.

The usual BONCET & MAYAT

*HURHUR*

"elly boncet"

"elly giler"

"elly....potek!"

*ppsstt..She staring at the com so near..She so potek!!!*

khekhe!

Ok stop it...!

Well Valentine's day is comin..

Who shall i surprise besides BARNEY eh...??

Buy him OSIM GALLOP!! hahahaha! for real ok!

Or but for Elly? hehehehe!

P/S:elly pls buy me a air-conditioner. It's so hot in this coffin!

*MUAHKZ*

ellymellybarino-boncet!

2006-01-27T20:58:00.000+08:00

Here we are again.

Together forever & ever.

Watever it is I MISS U LAH ACHI!!!

We had such a longggg can't-stop laughing conversation.

Very Irritating lah u boncet!

Anyway I promise to make it all up to u. Oh yah! Show on 3rd feb. We will party together-gether. Only the two of us orytezzzz. Hehehe~ We'll dance as if we own the dance floor. And we gonna spent a hell of a time. Maybe it's been rocky for you recently but u know I'm always there for you. Its a phone call away orytez gf! Anyway I need to meet up wit Ibu. I MISS HERR!! oh yah make it two juniors of ellymellybarino & myayayayat. hehe!

Till ma next postttteee'

SEXY COYOTE

CLUELESS

2006-01-26T22:02:00.000+08:00

I'm feeling wrecked!
or there's still light of happiness in those eyes.
I'm clueless.
But WAT-EVER!
Family's on the rocks.
Boyfriend's at work.
My gf's all LOST.
I'm clueless.
Results not out yet.
French only starts feb.
Salsa still deciding.
I'm farking clueless.
I'm on msn.
Fik&Lik are a complete nuisances.
I'm stranded.
I'm FARKING clueless.

Luv dear Maia

2006-01-21T13:20:00.000+08:00

Yesterday I had sumptuos meal, one after the other. Ok let me start it frm top. Maybe it was nt a gd day after all. Many bad times but still we tried to make it better. Me & Aydel. It started off a bad morning when he came knockin on my door but i didn't hear. It was a bad start of the day

& well i guess i was too demanding. I learned that sometymes too demanding have consequences. Well aftr that we got nothing much to do so we went Westmall as both of us were wearing slippers. yeah~~ so no Orchard Rd. Wanted to watch "Undiscovered" but none. That Eng Wah Cineplex got none! Fark. Nothing was better than. So we went Jurong Point. At last, still none, we watched "In Her Shoes". Advice: Not for people who can't stand slow results. After 2.5hrs we went nowhere. So we took a cab dwn to Jurong Entertainment. Yeah play game?? So at least Aydel can get off those evil thoughts that lingers in his head. But in the cab we decided to play pool. Yes I know I'm a bad player so thats would be perfect. So much I've lost at least Aydel gets satisfaction & be happy. But it was only at the pool station that the happiness lasted. After that we went to eat deserts. More bad news. Don't need to talk bout it. It brought me to tears juz hearing. Then we went to eat again. We had 2 pieces of chicken, 2 hashbrowns, beans, 2 buns & more fries. At least this time i hope it would take away his stressed mind but noooooo~~~

Dear Watever I've done for you yesterday, I had done my best to make you happy & tried to keep those problems of yours off your mind.I really tried. But You don't seem to be wat i expected to nor appreciate it. But I dun mind & I dun care. I just hate when your like that. I juz want to give the best for you & I know you still LOVE ME..

Luv Dear Maia.

2006-01-18T14:54:00.000+08:00

I'm in deep shit now. But that doesn't mean it was frm you Nisah. Its nt only you that bothers me. I'm having too much of things. And of course i can't be at ease. Especially if I can't consult on you anymore. Elly? It's been a long tyme since i contact her. Try contacting her but of no use. So it was you Nisah who was there. Before this I would defintely say it was Elly. Coz part of my life i spent it with her n she was there all along. But since she's now busy with school n her work life as a successful dancer, She had no tyme. And that doesn't mean I'm making use of you Nisah. Elly, Nisah & all of my other gfs are all there for me and I appreciate it so much. Its juz that Nisah & Elly & Kruz are my so called "dominant" gfs. And I love you all. I know you girls have your own life to go through n I'm juz nobody for you girls to bother. The only people i can rely on everytime is my Family & my bf. But having you girls ard are juz like my family. Trust me I never did backstab any of you. Its juz that when i think bout it, When someone did something so gd, no grudges, no evils, no jealousy, no ignorant towards their loved ones, its comes to that particular person that she would nt get the same hospitality instead those loved ones will come back putting great pressure, humiliation n fault towards the person-ME

But I don't take it to heart juz that sometymes i juz wonder..

Wat ever it is I still play my part as a truthful & loyal gf...

Only that sometymes I juz hav to patient for those people who took the pleasure to ruin me dwn with all those conflicts, lies & jealousy..

2006-01-16T16:20:00.000+08:00

Reply frm Her

Reply frm MyA

Maybe i'm not meant to have girlfriends..So what can i do?

This is nt a qn. to b answered " So what can i do?" You should jolly well asked urself wat u done wrong till someone says tt to you.

Yes i do prioritise my bf..So?

Then hav ur priorities farking RIGHT!

Do u expect me to just simpan dendam lame2 wen ur mom talk to me tt way?

In the freakin' first place, u shudn't hav any esp. with an old lady..dammit!

Did my mom talk to u rudely? Are u sure? Think again girl.

Well u juz doesn't seem to understand "rude awakening". YOU THINK AGAIN! y muz she say that to me?! Asking me nt to interfere wit u anymore. Listen its you to tell me off. Its only between you & me, nt with the mothers! Dun get too emotional

Maybe ur mom should learn to like your friends.Den maybe all this things won't happen again in future.

My mother?learn?liking my friends?Who are you to insist. She's a mother n you know SHE KNOWS BETTER.

I am emotional,I am sensitive.I thought you knew?

Who didn't? its nt only emotional & sensitive, its WAY OVER emo&senstive till you get all your facts wrong!

I understand it's hard to choose between a gf and a mother.Go on,choose your mother.It's a must anyways.If i were in ur position,i wud choose my mother too.

Its never hard to choose between a gf like you n my mother coz i definitely choose my mother. In the first place it was nvr a choosing game. My mother is always right. Now i understand why. Dun get caught up "if i were in ur postion...." You never will!

Saying those things to your mother was necessary.U nvr know wads going to happen.I dunt want ur family to come find my family if anyting bad happens to you.It's gonna turn out bad.

It was unnecessary. You started first "taking your smart move"

You know my mom don't care. They can't find you. They don't know where you live & your farking number. See who's trouble herself calling n making a hassle!

& yes,i won't be having yet another gf.It hurts too much.Made me cry so much.

Its your own problem. Its hurts you coz your digging ur own grave. being too emotional n nt thinking. CRY? tts all you can do..!

You've done no wrong Mya.It's just the way u talk.U hurt people without noticing it.U dun realise wat u say always hurt people's feelings especially me.

The way i talk & its content was all nt BULLSHIT. If its too much & too hurting FACTS then too bad, FACE THE REAL WORLD. Its the truth n somebody has to tell u straight to your face.

& yes,my loved ones do think u're not eligible being in my list of friends but i still stick to u aniways.Dunch u know that too?

Like as if its ur family thats in this friendship. Compare me & the bf I'm juz a friend. If people say the bf is nt eligible then better think many times coz he's someone in ur life. And compare me & the bf, HE'S WORSE. "but i still stick to u aniways.Dunch u know that too?" I DUN NEED SYMPATHY if it was juz all for the sake.

Cos i dun wana tell you that before,i was afraid to hurt ur feelings.The way ur mom told me off the other day,hurt me just bad too Mya.I cried my heart out realising that ur mom really hates me for wad reason i dun really know.

4 MANY REASONS NOW I'M REALISING.....& nw im leaving you a winner of complications. Coz i'm never a Sore loser. U know me, Im juz stating facts!

2006-01-02T18:28:00.000+08:00

Ok Lovely evenin' to all my dudes & dudettes. MyA here is horrendously sick! Juz got a call frm Zai Dreadlock & Andrew Whites askin fer dancers frm me to heat up their new club! WOOHOO~!

The Journey of the New year begins & same goes to Barney&Gf too

Anyway New Year's been great. Spent it wit my BABY BARNEY. No pics. Tremendously disappointin' but its okay. We went for KFC meal @ Bukit Batok. I juz need my chicken so badly!! Then we head dwn to Marina Bay where we ate STEAMBOAT!!!!!!! It was excitin' but...the food sucks...Maybe nex tyme! Hurhur! Then we went to see fireworks whre its clear view n very LESS people. Wonderin' whre? Too bad my mouth's shut! Its was a great experience. My first time watchin' fireworks wit tt fat purple dinosaur. My first time wit a guy whom I love so much! Yeah my first time. Then we called Daddy who's havin' fun @ Sentosa's Beach Party & My sis,Bro-in law & Bro,Gf & Wish them a HAPPY NEW YEAR.

Actually our plan was juz a simple outin' of no particular special plannin' so the last hrs we went to watch WALLACE & GROMIT THE CURSE OF THE WERE-RABBIT(evil laugh) It was farkin' borin' rite dear so slept the whole way till the end. When its done it was already 530am n we're so wrecked. But watever it is we had fun together. I think! Hurhur!

So wats the resolution fer this yr? Wonderin'. Me too. hm....

As the new year's here, begin it wit Myself & Adel.
My Journey of well-being, education-wise till the top of the world, mentally & physically upbringin' will nt b accompanied alone but with Him.
In thin&thick we will succeed. Courage, Perseverance & Patience is all it takes.
So as the year ends, it's still Myself & Adel.

2005-12-28T01:14:00.000+08:00

@ Estique Pacific Plaza

Ok Eve & Christmas has been great of coz wit' my darling Adel.. Ok now... Where did we go? (Thinkin' Thinkin') Friday went to do my hair @ Estique. Perm & Colour almost cost me 400bucks. Nt yet update all those gone-through-process-pictures yet. Then Adel bought new GLOBE shoes & I bought myself new GALLAZ shoes. yeah! So wat gitu lorh.. Haha! Anyhow then we headed dwn..(where eh?) Ok Ok! went to eat at Adel's fav. foodcourt : NEWTON!!! we ate

2 bowls of rices each
Sambal Kangkong
Sambal Sotong
Sting Ray in sambal
Sambal Prawns
Omelette
Green Tea for HER
Watermelon Juice for US
Marlboro Menthol for HIM
Marlboro Lights for HER

There goes our Friday. Saturday was Eve of Christmas. Head dwn Stussy. Wanted to buy tee or dress ended up buyin' jacket. Sweet Colour. Adel loves it so I bought it!

@ Cafe Cartel Marina SquareSunday was Christmas & it was fun but something tragic happened! In the mid-noon went to Kak Nina's wedding @ Bukit Batok. hehe! so fun so much singin' so many ppl so many dudes. OOPZ! that was nt on purpose. Then Adel pick me up went home, I changed & off we go to...(Thinkin' Thinkin') oh..we went to eat @ Cafe Cartel. lots lots of stuffs. Then we went..LIAT TOWER meet up my starbucks friends but ended up meetin' MY BIG BRO caught me red-handed while i was smokin' yeah but he's chilled! haha! Then off we go....?? Haiyah si beh sulah ni brain..short-term memory! Anyways after that u guys no need to know...!

So that was it..I think!

Till ma nex bytchin' dudes & dudettes!

2005-12-23T04:55:00.000+08:00

PIC OF THE MONTH

Haha! This is my favourite friend cum firefighter cum companion when it comes to eatin' cum JERK'S(Iskander Shah) besties . Hehe! Well this pic nt only annoys & irritates me, makes me laugh a little then ALOUD but juz wonderin' WATS THE FARKIN MOTIVE? Juz to remind u guys this JACKASS is our heroes...ARRRR U TINK SO NW? haha!

Well watever it is haha! U SUCKS BIG TYME & havin a ding-dong-bell-friend like you really gets me up and about! Esp when it comes to eatin' ur NO. 1 BONCET! Hurhur! Giler to the maximum voltage if i chill wit him..Hehe~~

Hey who tell u I got bf uh?! Must b Nisah?!! Hurhur ASL JEALOUS EH? nahh u'll always b my one & only DAMDAM & jackass...! HURHUR!

So how somemore tattoes of my designs?? Hw bout tt?? can la can la I do a little more designs then u put on ur body again..khekhe! Ur body can b my drawing block! HURHUR!

Ok lah enuff of my complimentings for you...! I promise we gonna get BONCET again ok!

till my very nex bycthin' watch ur back u'll nvr noe u'll b the nex prey;)

DINNER & DANCE SPECIAL

2005-12-15T14:08:00.000+08:00

Happens on de 28th Nov. @ The Pinetree. Everythin' was awesome. Simply unpredictable. Popular kids come together makin' marquillaz peeps. Luv ya guys!

KRUZ were Beeyouteeful. Another Marvelous Ladies. Simply Excellent females. And thanks to the girls, too makin' me sing 'I TURN TO YOU' infront of the people. Yeah we had fun, loads of it.

Emotions drained & sometimes it seems unforgettable to let go of someone you love n expectin' miracles but to my girlfriends "Let It Go" coz u deserve way better.

Brian Ong Ngiap Shawn! My everlastin' bf. Its a great thing u START talkin' to me already coz i really MISS YOU JACKASS! U didn't remember my bday? But its okay. At least u told me u'r goin' to the States. If u didn't, you'r dead meat JACKASS! Anyway I juz wanna say Hope Everything Goes Fine Wit' You & Chingz. We'll hav a drink or two later when u return frm States. I promise. MUAHKZ

Yes yes my Sexy ass girlfriends. When are we goin clubbin' together?! Miss ya babes. So wat did u buy fer me at Tokyo? U Better! If nt i skin u till ur very end fats! Hurhur! Love you many many Chingz! Genim! What did u buy fer me for everyday? haha. U sexy bimbo! Hurhur!Remember the Beeyouteeful Sexy MyA Dancer;)Hey guys! Missin' ya. Where's my $5 ciggees? Haha. And when r we playin' soccer? Chill together? Another family of Jerks! Yeah!~~~Miss you guys very very Muchie!!!! Oh yeah i can't wait fer our debut 'Broken' Neutrals feat. MyA! Woohoo~~~ Tell me A.S.A.P. Im so freakin' excited. Hehe!

Ok last n of coz nothin' else THANK YOU to MY PURPLE DINOSAUR fer sendin' the flowers to my hse if nt i got no accesories on my hair. & of coz this guy uh! heavy mkn wit me before my dinner & dance. Very clever eh..!! But watever it is I LOVE YOU~~~~~~~~~~~~always...